Sunday Confessional

These are my confessions. 

Confession #1:
I’ve gone back to the dark side of computers and am now a PC user once again. WHO AM I.

I’ve been a Mac person for almost 15 years, but it recently became clear that my trusty mid-2007 Macbook was at the end of its life cycle. (Battery/charging/overheating issues, etc.) Frankly, I’m not in a position to drop $1,000 on a new computer right now. Apple: I love you, but your shit is SO expensive. I’d already swapped out the battery previously and had still been experiencing issues over the past couple of years. Since I only need a laptop to do a handful of very basic things (that could be done on my phone or iPad, in theory, but are much more efficiently done on a laptop), after some research I decided to defect back to the world of PCs.

Surprisingly, I don’t hate Windows as much as I used to. Granted, by necessity I use Windows every day at work, but at home I’m using Windows 10 and it…isn’t that bad, actually. There are a zillion settings and notifications that I turned off/disabled, but once I tweaked things to my liking, so far it’s been just fine.

I’m keeping my Macbook since technically, it still runs and I don’t intend on transferring any files over since I like the idea of starting fresh. Also, maybe I’m not exactly ready to let go of it. All this being said, I am still 100% an iPhone person and you will pry it out of my cold, dead hands. But for now, I’m okay with enjoying both worlds (bi-computeral?).

Confession #2:
For the past month or so, I’ve been working on getting my health back in order. I think that blogging about my New Year’s resolutions kept some really important things in the forefront of my mind these past several weeks. So, I started tracking my meals again (ugh) and working out again (UGH).

Also recently, my employer launched a new wellness program that has been really helpful in motivating me to be healthier. There’s a monetary incentive to it, which apparently is very inspirational for me, haha. But also, I’m at a point where I just hated feeling crappy all the time and as much as I hate, hate, hate working out and tracking meals, I hate being unhealthy even more, I guess.

Anyway, since last month, I’m down several pounds and I only have 8 more pounds to lose before I’m back at my goal weight. (Hopefully, this time I’ll stay there.) Right now, my workout routine involves walking on the treadmill while listening to an audiobook. And I’ve plowed through quite a few audiobooks in the past month, which is an unintended bonus to this whole regimen. I’m eating healthier too, but trying to manage my cravings for junk food is still a big challenge for me. I don’t want to jinx myself or sabotage my plans, but I want to be optimistic while still remaining realistic, if that makes sense.

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It’s Super Bowl Sunday and I have no intention of watching the big game, but every intention of watching both the Puppy Bowl and Kitten Bowl. Also, I will be reading a football romance in honor of the game, but that’s as far as my participation in Super Bowl Sunday goes. 🙂

Cold Turkey

Happy Endings

Today’s prompt is from The Daily Post.

Tell us about something you’ve tried to quit. Did you go cold turkey, or for gradual change? Did it stick?

Ugh, the first thing that comes to mind is health, specifically diet. While I’m fortunate not to have other vices like drinking or smoking, I do have a love/hate relationship with food.

I’ve tried to quit eating junk food cold turkey, which definitely did not work for me. Then again, I’ve tried to change my habits gradually by eating mostly healthy during the week and only indulging on the weekend, but clearly that hasn’t stuck, either.

One of the only successes I’ve had with quitting something cold turkey, oddly enough, was when I decided to quit eating beef several years back. This was the first time that my cholesterol had been diagnosed as high, which scared me enough to make me eliminate beef from my diet completely (though I still continued to eat other types of meat). I don’t think I could ever be a vegetarian, but in my mind, beef was the main culprit since I had been eating it so frequently.

I somehow managed not to eat beef for almost one year—during which time I ate healthier and exercised—and my cholesterol, along with my weight, did go down. I consider this a partial success because I was able to maintain this for several months, but eventually I lost the motivation and went back to my previous eating habits. My weight would go up and down a bit more in the coming years, but I’ve never found the will to quit something cold turkey like that again.

When I joined Weight Watchers, I liked the structured nature of the program and it wasn’t long before I reached my goal weight. However, that success was short-lived too because I just didn’t stick with it in the long term.

For me, whether it’s cold turkey or gradual change, it’s just too easy to slip back into bad habits. I’m still not quite sure how to approach my health. I want to feel better and take better care of myself, but junk food is definitely one of my biggest vices. What I’ve done in the past proves that I can meet my goals, at least temporarily. The hardest thing for me is maintaining good habits rather than going back to what is easier and unhealthy.

Catching Up

Since I haven’t had a blog in ages, I figured I’d post a quick recap of what I’ve been up to lately.

This weekend, Michael and I watched Lucy. Warning: slight spoilers ahead. The movie had an interesting concept but I thought that the execution wasn’t great. I expected Lucy to do a bunch of kickass things with her mind but as it turns out, apparently when you use 100% of your brain, you just want to kill a lot of people. And although I’m no neuroscientist, I’m pretty sure that the “humans only use 10% of our brains” theory has been shown to be a myth.

On to other things.

Work lately has been pretty good, except that I’ve had some kind of mystery injury that has put me on light duty. I went to the doctor and found out that I strained a muscle in my neck, which was causing both neck and shoulder pain. I’m still not sure how I injured myself. The doctor gave me pain meds in addition to a muscle relaxer, which have both helped. My neck pain cleared up pretty quickly, but my shoulder has been hurting off and on for the past week.

Since I work library circulation, I do a lot of physical tasks throughout the day, not limited to but including book handling such as check-in, check-out, and carting of materials. So while my neck/shoulder issue wasn’t a major injury, it has definitely been aggravated by my daily duties simply because I haven’t had much chance to just let the muscles rest and recuperate.

Luckily, I was off yesterday and today, so my shoulder is feeling a lot better. I’m hoping that my physical woes will resolve themselves soon. It’s an awful feeling to be at work and be in constant pain every day. It’s like I have arthritis, or something! (Note: I’m way too young to be having so many aches and pains.) Yikes.

Aches and pains aside, work is picking up. In a few months, my position will be eliminated and absorbed into the next higher position, which technically means I’m getting a raise and promotion–yay! It’s an across-the-board move, so a bunch of us will be cross-training in upcoming weeks as we prepare for our positions to be converted.

I’m both excited and nervous about the transition. On one hand, there are a lot of duties that I’ve been doing already, so I feel like I don’t have as much of a learning curve as some others do. On the other hand, with a new position comes extra responsibilities, so I’m slightly nervous but I think it’ll all work out okay. And ultimately, I’m really thankful to be employed at all.

So that’s what’s been going on this past week or so! Since I’ve had the neck/shoulder stuff going on, I haven’t been able to knit at all this week. I really hope everything heals completely because I’m eager to start a new project–a gift for a coworker. Hopefully, soon I’ll be able to show you what’s currently on my needles. 🙂